Today: My next dip

When I woke up this morning, all I could hear was the voice in my head telling me to go get another can of dip. However, if you read the post from yesterday, Tonight: My last dip, you would know that this shouldn’t be. I was supposed to quit.

Well, just like the many times before, I failed to quit. I had a very good reason, or excuse. However you want to look at it.

I actually think nicotine helps me.

Now, don’t leave just yet. Let me explain. I understand that nicotine in the form of dipping or cigarettes is awful for you. Nicotine itself may have major long term adverse effects. Throw in the extra chemicals present in cigarettes and smokeless tobacco, and it is even worse. However, there are some benefits to nicotine, as crazy as it may sound.

Nicotine helps me stay in tuned to whatever it is I may be working on. It helps me concentrate. It makes me feel smarter, even if it is just short term. Is it a placebo effect? Maybe, but more information is coming out to support what I am saying. A quick search brought up the video below. I am not going to vouch for Dave Asprey, but you can at least see where others are thinking something similar when it comes to nicotine.

So let me fill you in on something that is occurring for me right now in my life. I am currently going through a process to help pair me with purchasing a local franchise. I need to be on top of my game. I had a phone conversation today, another tomorrow, and probably a couple meetings mixed in in the next couple days.

Quitting on Tuesday, the first work day of the week because of Memorial Day, was not conducive to my schedule. If I am going to quit, I need to do it towards the end of the week so that I can take on the worst of the quit (the first three days) in stride over the weekend. Watching the video I linked to above, Dave mentions it is about four days for the physical addiction to wear off. In my experience that is about right: 3 days, 4 days, somewhere in there.

It would have been smart of me to undertake this task last Friday with the extended weekend. Hindsight is 20/20. I am where I am today and need to look forward. Thus, I am currently looking to quit dipping this Friday.

Somewhere deep inside, and because of where I am in my career, I am dreading the upcoming days where I feel like I am in a fog mentally. That will be something I will be fighting off and on over the next few months. It certainly won’t be helpful when I need to act. However, it must be done. It’s time to quit.

I can go crawl back into my shell because of this setback or failure. But that is not who I am. I am an entrepreneur at heart and if one thing rings true as an entrepreneur, you need to be able to embrace failure. Because with failure brings the opportunity to analyze where you went wrong and improve. It is a rare entrepreneur that succeeds on the first try. Though you may only hear about the successes, some of the most recognizable entrepreneurs had their struggles.

One that comes to mind is Steve Jobs – the founder of Apple.

I could have just come to my website today and deleted my post from last night. But I didn’t. I am an open book and I want to convey the struggle as best I can. This will not be limited to quitting tobacco as it will easily transfer to other parts of my life. Hopefully by describing my failures as they play out, it will make reading about my successes that much sweeter.